And I Thought I Loved You Then (Happy Father’s Day)

At 4:45am this morning, I pulled a crying Mackenzie out of her crib, started feeding her, and began stressing about the fact that it was Father’s Day and I was 100% unprepared. No card. No presents. Not even any bacon to accompany breakfast.

Luckily enough for me, I married you.

And I knew that you weren’t going to wake up waiting for a card. Or a present. You might wonder where the bacon is, but you’ll be happy knowing that your girls are next to you and that we all love you more than anything in the whole world.

As I sat there looking down at my littlest love hoping she’d fall asleep for a little while longer after eating, a song kept playing through my head and I couldn’t help but think of how much it pertains to our life.

The song?

I Thought I Loved You Then

Let me explain…

When we went on our first date, we both knew something was different. We both knew that was our last first date (you knew faster than me, claiming to have known by the end of dinner, but I caught up pretty fast). We both knew that our lives were about to change.  We just didn’t know how much or how quickly.

After 3 months of dating, I blew out my knee in a basketball game and you were there. You took me to the hospital. You took care of me. You literally did everything for me. You carried me when I needed to be carried and you made me laugh when I didn’t think it was humanly possible.

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And I thought I loved you then.

Within a year of our first date, we moved in together and our journey continued. We shared meals, stories, a bathroom, everything…and then this happened.

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And I thought I loved you then.

Nine months later, we were lucky enough to say our vows in front of our closest friends and family and proceeded to dance the night away in true Travis and Ali fashion. It was one of the best days of our lives.

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And I thought I loved you then.

Then two short months later (to the day) we found out that we were expecting a baby. Throughout our first pregnancy, you supported me, listened to me complain, prepared with me, and anxiously awaited the birth of our first daughter.

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And then she came.

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And she was perfect.

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And while I always imaged you would be an amazing Daddy, you went above and beyond in every possible way. You made bonding with Abigail look like a walk in the park. You made being a Daddy look like the best job in the whole world. You made me feel like my constant requests were never too much. You worked harder and harder and harder at work. You were the perfect balance of silliness to my constant concerns.

Simply put, you were the most involved, most committed, and most fun Daddy around.

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And I thought I loved you then.

When we found out we were pregnant with baby #2, we were both thrilled, nervous, and anxious. It was everything we had hoped for, but there was always this question in the back of our minds (mainly my mind) , “how could we possibly love another baby as much as we love our first!?”

And then she arrived.

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And she was perfect.

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And all over again, you made me fall more in love with you. Without even skipping a beat, you became super Daddy to not only one, but two beautiful baby girls.

It doesn’t matter if it’s Monday morning or if it’s Father’s Day, babe…you are always on and you are always the best. You are always playing with the girls. You are always taking care of all your ladies.

And while we (I) may not have prepared enough for today, just know that we couldn’t imagine our lives without you.

You are not only the absolute best thing that’s ever happened to me, but you’re without a doubt the best thing that’s ever happened to our girls.

We LOVE you.

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Father’s Day 2013

“We’ll look back someday
At this moment that we’re in
And I’ll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then”

I love you,

me

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4 Responses

  1. Wow, I don’t think I’ve ever cried from reading a blog. That was lovely.

  2. I’m so glad you love “our” first born so much! We love him, too, and all his girls! Kay

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