I’m doing it.
Slowly but surely.
I touched on this a few weeks ago when I talked about planning for #2, but it feels so strange to put my thoughts into action.
To be honest, I think it’s harder for me than it is for Abby.
I’ve had so many mixed emotions with this decision. For us, it’s all about prioritizing (I suppose that’s how most decisions are made) and it all comes down to this:
Do we want to breastfeed our daughter for (at least) a full year, or do we want our kids to be super close together?
Super close together won.
That being said, it’s still a strange feeling. Being a SAHM, I could continue nursing and I feel like it’s part of my “job” (especially considering the fact that nursing was never a struggle for us and we consider ourselves fortunate in that regard). Nursing could continue. It’s not like I’m pumping at work or planning around my travel schedule or anything like that.
But if nursing continues, the chances of us getting pregnant sooner rather than later are slim (because no, my period has not returned yet – sorry if TMI. It’s funny that it’s actually something I’m hoping for and waiting for – call me crazy!).
But back to my story…
I’m weaning. Slowwwwly.
I started two weeks ago when Abigail reached the 7 month milestone and we replaced one meal a day with formula. She devoured it as if she’s been eating it her entire life (not surprising considering the fact she eats anything we give her).
That strange feeling I had when making the decision to wean or not to wean was still there (I’d call it “guilt” but I’m not convinced that’s the right word…let’s just stick with “strange”). To make myself feel a little better, I chose a formula that would minimize the strange feelings I was having. I discussed it with 7x7xDaddy and he supported my decision so we all walked to Whole Foods and ended up with this:
Call me a sucker, but here’s how I see it: it’s a little more expensive for a little extra peace of mind (and a little less crazy Mommy which is all 7x7xDaddy cares about).
The funny part about this whole weaning process?
I’m 2 weeks into it and we’ve cut out one or two nursing sessions a day (and replaced it with Earth’s Best) and the strange feelings I was having are quickly being replaced with feelings of freedom, acceptance and excitement. The strange feelings have been replaced with the knowledge that we’re making the best decision for our family and that’s all that really matters.
Funny how quickly things change.